for everything....

"for everything there is a season." Ecclesiastes 3:1

i just read this as i was drinking milk out of the carton on chase's preschool paper. it's his memory verse for the month. ah, and speaks to me in just the right moments.

even though i may battle it as much as i can at times, i am very content in my "season". sure, sometimes i think i have "sacrificed" my entire livelihood and identity to be where i am at today. but honestly, it works and i wouldn't have it any other way.

i am content in this stillness of not having any major responsibility besides raising my children right now. even though the administrator in me is going haywire with boredom at times, i know my kids will only be little once. i am glad that i am able to be with them, even though it is hard and challenging and i stink at it most of the time :)

i am content with relying on God for my future. He has me where He wants me. there is always a bigger picture that i will never see or fully understand. no matter what i have to go through, it's always for a reason.

there are many parts of my season that suck right now that most will never know about, but i just can't dwell on those things. through all the clouds and confusion, i just see Him. and that makes my season beautiful every time.